Vagaries of Life.

Each year of my life was a special one for me........because each year I learned some thing new.......about life, about people and about the way the world is , Its like I'm being performance turned now ..........with blows from some ends...with enchantment of my own.....without tying the loose ends and gathering the loose bits and pieces......

Well these 25 years were just superb and the coming ones will be even better, with Maaji, Papa, Bhai and Dee who know only to love. They are the ones who have supported me till date.With friends who just like me the way I'm, though there were cases of unmatched frequencies of thoughts with some and they stopped talking to me.....but still I do remember them often. When I look back at my childhood I realize that a woman paints the child's experiences in her own fantasy. I had a childhood full of joys and sorrows which have lost their touch with time. Many incidents of vital importance have been forgotten in the excitement of great discoveries. This never ending quest of new discoveries has turned me into a very inquisitive and argumentative kind of a person. From the very start I wanted to know the reason for every occurrence around me. I rarely spoke without any reason. Speech was never a medium to express my self or what I thought. The incidents in the 15th year of my life were responsible for the sudden awakening of my soul, after which my desire to express grew and from that day I haven't looked back. As I started expressing my views I came to have a better understanding of people and this world. My thinking evolved gradually as I met more and more people. It turned me into a more imaginative and ambitious person. I grew up in an environment which was full of love, peace and freedom. I was never forced into anything that I didn't want to do. All decisions were mine and I regret none of them. My ideas had been vague from the very start and later as my knowledge grew I turned into a more practical creature but frankly I still think a bit superficially. I studied various subjects but was always fascinated by reasons more than numbers. (That is why I guess I've good analytical capability). The most amazing thing in these years has been that the best time of my life has been the worst time too.... or.... should I say the worst time was the best time I had and that was in the last years of my school life. I experienced zenith and nadir in the same period of my life. This was the phase in which for the first time in life joy deserted my heart and for a long time I lived in doubt, anxiety and fear. Books lost their relevance for me. It was a difficult phase to come through but eventually I came through it with a totally new and more positive prospective. I have missed many opportunities in life and have learned my lessons the hard way which made me tenacious and careful.I'm glad that all this happened to me making me better with each stroke. The college was just a polishing institute to know the reasons practically but it turned out to be the other way round and made me a better human being rather than a good engineer and yes I owe many other things to my college. The people I have met so far made a huge difference in my life, would I have been able to enrich this writeup with their names it would have been difficult to complete it. Some are close to me and many others while others are totally unknown, but their influence shall live immortally in the lives of many like me that they sweetened and touched.                

Thanks to you all.         

There is only this: Pure Silence.

To be a good speaker one has to be a very good listener. As their is a famous quote " Think before you speak" and one can only speak about the things that one learns from the people with whom we interact, the humans we meet. The only reason that we humans are surviving with such vast numbers is that we help each other to survive and that is why we are called the social race. We use verbal language to communicate and that is what makes our thoughts come out. That is the way we express ourselves. This way of communicating through speech is found in us only at such an advanced stage.
On an average we meet hundreds of people and not particularly in the sense that we interact with them all, it includes the people around us to whom we may have glanced during the day. There are very few good listeners in our society, when we hear someone, immediately some ideas or curious questions arises in our mind and then we want to query and this is where we stop listening to a person and now we want our queries to be answered without knowing that they might be answered once the speaker finishes. The more we listen the more we learn. Our mind is educated, smashed and programmed to think that way. The human evolution is the result of these never ending questions, as we tried to solve every mystery of life.
Our brain is curious to know, but one could learn more quickly if we hold back our questions for the time when someone is speaking. The questions can be answered later. Generally these things happen when we interact one on one with someone. The curiosity is crushed when we are being publicly addressed as masses. The human mind always asks questions and its hard to answer all of them Sometimes its hard to answer all the questions that arouses from within you. So their is only one thing that prevails...................................... pure silence.              

Break ups and Patch ups........................................

I thought of writing about break-ups and patch-ups as two of my very good friends often breakup and later patch up to again breakup to patchup again. I know its hard to swallow, the same is the case with me so I thought about it and tried to find out.
Breakups as they sound not only breaks up the relationships but they often break up the person.After a breakup one either moves in life or gets back together again, but most people move without knowing why they moved on and a few would get back together, but unfortunately many will suffer for a long time because of the heartbreak. My friends belong to the elite group of people who get back together.Breakup brings the phase in which one is vulnerable to depression, and both parties suffer unless the breakup is mutual. Its the time when one feels sorrow and anger and takes life changing decisions and the decisions taken in this state are never rational. This state of sorrow and anger is due to the fact that  when breakup happens one feels he/she is not going to find true love again.(So do try atleast once to win back your love) Its always hard to go through the pain of breakup, its a state of loneliness, depression and desperation. The things that are hardest to get are usually the most wanted and your love wants to make you realize how hard he/she is to get, despite knowing that the pain of a breakup is only going to tear them apart and no one else. So I came to the conclusion that my beautiful friends deeply love each other that is the reason why they patchup again and again. Each of them cannot see other in the state of sorrow and anger , in pain and depression. There are conflicts in relationships because each one of us see things differently. Most people who have true affair are not self centered, cold hearted or cheaters. 
People generally realize after breakup that what a big mistake they have committed. Overwhelmed, they are stuck, unable to make decisions yet want the best for those they love. The need is to take an in - depth look into their relationship, assess its strengths and weaknesses and determine personal preferences, needs and future directions so that a breakup may not happen ever again or for that matter may not happen in the first place.
No matter what happens in life, not only does something valuable comes out of it but its just what you need.So keep enjoying your break-ups and patch ups.        

Pure Instincts

They say that the way you can feel yourself nobody else can and I would say after being all around Himachal, the place where I touched myself was Kasol. The first things that welcomes you to the day is the sound of the parvati river flowing beside your room and the morning mist anyone can touch oneself.It feels like heaven.The parvati flowing in the hills covered with pine and deodar forests is just an amazing scenic view and if you are boozed and high than the feeling is just out of this world. This place helps me to relax into a receptive state of consciousness and perform the divination process in the most effective way. The loneliness, solitude and peace helps me frame questions to myself from which people generally runaway, like ' What is the underlying reason why I'm having such a difficult time in life?' 
After framing the question I empty all my previous thoughts and as always is open to a new perspective of thoughts to sought out the problem. I realized that a flood of  insights may be evoked even by a single word or phrase. Any event or anything at all can support different meanings depending upon the context of an event and its level of relationship to you. The insight helped me to examine not only my own life but rather on the whole human condition and that how difficult it is to survive in this society with its corruption and violence. It is thus important to be self aware. One cannot know oneself, expect in relationship. Anger, envy, lust all such reactions exist only in one's relationship, and relationship can be with any one may it be people, things or with ideas. I generally relate to my ideas. If their is complete isolation, no relationship at all, one cannot know oneself. The mind can isolate itself thinking that it is somebody but its a state of unbalance and its hard to know oneself in this state. Because relationships are painful we want to isolate ourselves from this pain and in this isolating process we create the ideal of what we should be, which is imaginary, an invention of the unbalanced mind. We are first and foremost human beings.Each one of us is like the rest of the humanity and not different. Sometimes the place brings out the best in you and that was the case with me when i visited kasol this time.

My Idea Of Life!!!!!

 

 In today’s world most of the people find life very dull. A routine is set going which we follow year after year almost until our death. It doesn’t matter whether we are rich or poor but our lives are shallow and empty for the most part of our life. So most of us being aware of this emptiness within, try to fill it through knowledge or through some kind of activity that develops to our daily routine and to which we stick for rest of our life.

Our daily life is an endless cycle of sorrow and pleasure, a variety of experiences without much significance or should I say meaningless repetition of the same experiences day after day. Life is an endless conflict – from the moment we are born to the moment we die. The boredom, anxiety, misery of existence, the feeling of not being loved, the shallowness, the hard work of everyday existence-----that is our life. What we want from life is peace, a sense of certainty, a sense of security and to achieve this we seek jobs and get stuck into a boring routine. This gives us a pattern that we follow daily to live life in the safest way possible, of course differentiating from person to person. Thus we are deprived from exploring this beautiful world around us. The reason we stick to our routines is the fact that we are seeking social security. We commit ourselves to a certain cause, certain way of thinking, to certain customs, habits and rituals and thus feel safe in this hostile world despite knowing the fact that no one is here to live forever. Committing to a particular way of thinking, a particular form of existence, we identify ourselves in a group, a particular community thus feeling safe in our self made cocoon and knowing that this cocoon will be impossible to make in a totally new environment. Thus we hesitate to explore the unknown.

                       A human brain has vast potential and by sticking to one kind of environment it is being brutalized, beaten and shaped, so it keeps itself tight in a corner and life goes by. I don’t know if you have seen a man who has spent 30 or 40 years of his life going everyday to office! Look at his mind! He cannot function in any other way. Like a doctor who specializes in a particular disease – his heaven will be that disease and after 30 or 40 years following the same routine his mind has worn out, it’s not fresh, it’s not young so it makes him dull, stupid and incapable of facing challenges in life. So from beginning to the end a mind has to understand this immense problem of struggle trying to become something endlessly.

The ultimate secret of life is to have more things to do than to stick to one thing or to have more number of beginnings then endings.

So friends please try to..........................................................

“EXPLORE YOURSELF AND YOUR LIFE”