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Thursday, November 25, 2010

Vagaries of Life.

Each year of my life was a special one for me........because each year I learned some thing new.......about life, about people and about the way the world is , Its like I'm being performance turned now ..........with blows from some ends...with enchantment of my own.....without tying the loose ends and gathering the loose bits and pieces......
Well these 25 years were just superb and the coming ones will be even better, with Maaji, Papa, Bhai and Dee who know only to love. They are the ones who have supported me till date.With friends who just like me the way I'm, though there were cases of unmatched frequencies of thoughts with some and they stopped talking to me.....but still I do remember them often. When I look back at my childhood I realize that a woman paints the child's experiences in her own fantasy. I had a childhood full of joys and sorrows which have lost their touch with time. Many incidents of vital importance have been forgotten in the excitement of great discoveries. This never ending quest of new discoveries has turned me into a very inquisitive and argumentative kind of a person. From the very start I wanted to know the reason for every occurrence around me. I rarely spoke without any reason. Speech was never a medium to express my self or what I thought. The incidents in the 15th year of my life were responsible for the sudden awakening of my soul, after which my desire to express grew and from that day I haven't looked back. As I started expressing my views I came to have a better understanding of people and this world. My thinking evolved gradually as I met more and more people. It turned me into a more imaginative and ambitious person. I grew up in an environment which was full of love, peace and freedom. I was never forced into anything that I didn't want to do. All decisions were mine and I regret none of them. My ideas had been vague from the very start and later as my knowledge grew I turned into a more practical creature but frankly I still think a bit superficially. I studied various subjects but was always fascinated by reasons more than numbers. (That is why I guess I've good analytical capability). The most amazing thing in these years has been that the best time of my life has been the worst time too.... or.... should I say the worst time was the best time I had and that was in the last years of my school life. I experienced zenith and nadir in the same period of my life. This was the phase in which for the first time in life joy deserted my heart and for a long time I lived in doubt, anxiety and fear. Books lost their relevance for me. It was a difficult phase to come through but eventually I came through it with a totally new and more positive prospective. I have missed many opportunities in life and have learned my lessons the hard way which made me tenacious and careful.I'm glad that all this happened to me making me better with each stroke. The college was just a polishing institute to know the reasons practically but it turned out to be the other way round and made me a better human being rather than a good engineer and yes I owe many other things to my college. The people I have met so far made a huge difference in my life, would I have been able to enrich this writeup with their names it would have been difficult to complete it. Some are close to me and many others while others are totally unknown, but their influence shall live immortally in the lives of many like me that they sweetened and touched.                
Thanks to you all.         

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